Dec 3 2009

To that one follower out there...apologies for not writing for months and then being boring when I did start to write.

Today I am thankful to have a job. I watched people around me receive phone calls to 'come downstairs' which really meant 'you don't have a job here anymore' It's never nice. I imagine what it must be like to phone your family and tell them that kind of news; what situation it must put you in to suddenly be on your way home in the middle of the day when it feels like the rest of the world is at work, where you're supposed to be. I felt bad for everyone who got called down, but at the same time, so selfishly relieved that it wasn't me. I got to be one of those left behind as we gathered in groups to whisper and wonder and breath a sigh of relief.

Monday I was proud of the fact that I made a shopping list, stuck to it and had a menu plan for the week. Today I am over that and just want to get a pizza for dinner. By not freezing things, I'm forcing myself to cook them and it's good for our finances and good for our health, but I still resent it.

I'm off tomorrow to tackle a personal to do list (as opposed to the work one). I'm looking forward to getting random stuff done prior to our weekend house-guest and hopefully manage a walk with the dog. Ah, the dog. The best thing that's happened in ages. I don't know how people with children leave them to go to work because I am missing the dog every day and sometimes wonder how I could swing it to work from home just so she doesn't have to be alone. I act like it would be for her, but really it would be for me because she's so absolutely lovely. I've turned into one of those dog people.

Dec 2 2009

Day Two.

I joined a gym again. The 4 month hiatus has not been restful; it's been a hassle because I have no routine and I hate the way I feel when I'm not working out. If I had a nickle for every time I bring my gym stuff to work and then do nothing...I'd be rich.
I have lots of desire and very little discipline. I wish I were the type who actually benefited from the daily walks with the dog.

Tomorrow night is the introduction to this new gym. I hate gym introductions. I'd much rather just go and work out.

Thinking about the gym and not working out and how much I eat has instantly propelled me into a funk. It's pathological - I know what to do to feel better and I certainly know what not to do to avoid feeling this bad. This is familiar and not in a good way.

Dec 1 2009

It's 4pm, I'm finding it hard to concentrate on the 'to do' list, I've got a full cup of coffee and am inspired by someone else who vowed to write every day during the month of December.

I've left this site lingering for way too long. It's a shame because enough big stuff has happened over the past months. Would have made good reading.

This feels strange, a bit rusty. I think I'll type a list and hope (assume) that things will flow again soon.

Dinner menu this week:
Monday - turkey burgers, sweet potato fries, quinoa and black bean salad
Tuesday - Thai Salmon wrapped in filo, string beans with mushrooms
Wednesday - prawns in lemon sauce with whole wheat pasta
Thursday - taco's with turkey mince
Friday - pizza from simply fresh

nope, nothing yet. I'll try again tomorrow.